Dear Worship Leader,
There’s only one opinion in the universe that really matters.
But if you’re like me, you live and work as if it’s not enough. It’s not enough that God has chosen to love you, called you, equipped you, and has your back.
You would never say that God’s love isn’t enough but your actions prove it. You’re not satisfied with who you are, where you are, what you’re doing.
You just want somebody to notice you, to admire you, to give you the approval your heart seeks. But if I know anything about approval, I know that when it comes it doesn’t satisfy. It’s never enough.
Once I have it, I just want more and more and more and more.
Here’s my simple challenge: get back to the simplicity of moving God’s heart.
I remember when I was first saved. Do you?
I didn’t care what anyone else thought. I just wanted to know God. I just wanted to be alone with Him and move His heart with my worship. I would sing and weep and dance in the secret place because I knew I had an audience with the King of kings.
That was more than enough. Matter of fact, it was mind blowing. My Creator was present, near, and wanted to be with me.
I’m convinced of something. If you move God’s heart in secret, you’ll have a greater authority when you lead in public. Spiritual authority doesn’t come from personality, talent, or hard work. It comes from someone who has known and continues to know the goodness of God.
The best worship leaders are those with a current story. Simple as that. They’ve come to know the goodness of God and want others to know it. They have a burning desire for others to see what they have seen. They have a deep belief that only Jesus can satisfy. Only Jesus.
Everyday is an opportunity to discover something new of God – to catch a new glimpse of His character. If you’re like me, you often have eyes for everything but that.
Too often we ride the wave of yesterday’s grace when there is something new for today. But instead of waiting at the feet of our Master we run around striving amidst the crowds for something that is held out in the arms of Jesus.
It’s OK for you to influence the crowds but don’t allow the crowds to influence you to the point where you lose your eye for Jesus – where you forget the tone of His voice, the beauty of His heart, the satisfaction of His approval.
No need to feel terrible about where you are. That’s not productive. No need to beat yourself up with feelings of regret.
The beauty of mercy is that it is new today.
The mystery of grace is that there is always enough.
Just return. Come back. Re-center. Re-align. Fix your gaze.
That’s what I’m challenged to do today.
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Stacy says
Thi is exactly what I have been struggling with. Led worship last week and it went great. Lots of encouraging feedback, yet my yesterday I found myself depressed and struggling. Like all the affirmation wasn’t enough. Like I am broken and always in need of a good shot of encouragement. What a good reminder that there will never be enough affirmation and compliments if that is what I seek. I need to please only One. When his attention and approval is all that matters, then a thousand compliments from people will not matter to me, because the only one I care about is His pleasure with me. Thanks for your honesty David.
David Santistevan says
For sure, Stacy. I’ve learned to appreciate the approval but at the same time disconnect from it. The only approval I need is Heaven’s approval.
Art Charles says
Hey David how do you respond to the words of affirmation? I find myself not knowing how to respond because I don’t want to seem arrogant, but at the same time I don’t want to seem heartless as if I’m not appreciative of them.
Alex Boxall says
I love that we clearly share the same heart for who God is and what matters most.
I shared a short video about this over on my blog not long ago. I’d love for you to see it and let me know what you think.
http://www.worldwideworshipacademy.com/?p=160
Thanks and keep up the good work.
Great blog!
Alex
Nina says
This is beautiful David! It really is what it all boils down to. Thanks for sharing your heart!